The Struggle.
As most of you know, my 20th birthday is 08/20/1996, this year a few weeks before my 20th birthday I became very depressed and very bitter. I questioned why I am the way that I am, why I have Cerebral Palsy, why I was being punished because I have a disability, why my dad couldn't be here to celebrate with me and why I have been through so much, but then something crossed my mind, and I realized I should be proud of the young woman I am because the struggles and the hard times I have encountered in my 20 years has made me the strong woman I am today. I have accomplished a lot in my 20 years, I've laughed, I've lost, and I've cried but all of that has made me the woman who is typing this post. I've been through more than most people I know who are my age, most people ask me "Hayley, how are you still going? I don't see how you keep going with all that you've been through, my answer is always "Because giving up is not an option, no matter how much I feel like I want to, I know I have to stay strong for myself and my family."
I've realized that having Cerebral Palsy, makes me strong, makes me unique, and makes me who I am. I wish things could be different. I also know that this is how God intended for me to be, because even though Cerebral Palsy is a disability, it's also a gift a gift to inspire, a gift to motivate, and gift to help others keep pushing forward even when they want to give up. I have also realized that some people will accept me for who I am and some people probably won't, but that's okay because those people who don't are the ones who are missing out on the person that they never got to know, because of the person they placed judgement on based on the outside, they are the ones that missed out on a friend, someone who is willing to listen to them because I never had a friend to really listen to me or my problems, but they are also the ones who will have to answer to God for their judgment on others on judgement day.
Okay, okay enough of the sad and motivational stuff for today though.
On the other hand, Fall is right around the corner before you know it it'll be cooler weather, and pumpkin flavored absolutely everything, and I know plenty of people that are excited about that, I'm probably the only person that doesn't really like anything pumpkin flavored with the exception of pumpkin roll.
I can't ant wait to have cold enough weather to have a big huge bowl of Chili, YUMMMMM! Chili is probably one of my favorite foods, it's the BEST!!!
Well I'm probably going to wrap this post up and watch some TV, I hope that everyone has a blessed day!!
I've realized that having Cerebral Palsy, makes me strong, makes me unique, and makes me who I am. I wish things could be different. I also know that this is how God intended for me to be, because even though Cerebral Palsy is a disability, it's also a gift a gift to inspire, a gift to motivate, and gift to help others keep pushing forward even when they want to give up. I have also realized that some people will accept me for who I am and some people probably won't, but that's okay because those people who don't are the ones who are missing out on the person that they never got to know, because of the person they placed judgement on based on the outside, they are the ones that missed out on a friend, someone who is willing to listen to them because I never had a friend to really listen to me or my problems, but they are also the ones who will have to answer to God for their judgment on others on judgement day.
Okay, okay enough of the sad and motivational stuff for today though.
On the other hand, Fall is right around the corner before you know it it'll be cooler weather, and pumpkin flavored absolutely everything, and I know plenty of people that are excited about that, I'm probably the only person that doesn't really like anything pumpkin flavored with the exception of pumpkin roll.
I can't ant wait to have cold enough weather to have a big huge bowl of Chili, YUMMMMM! Chili is probably one of my favorite foods, it's the BEST!!!
Well I'm probably going to wrap this post up and watch some TV, I hope that everyone has a blessed day!!